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Friday, March 25, 2005

Fri, 25 Mar 2005 02:02:20 GMT

yeah i got this from karas xanga sight buti thought it was cute so i took it....but yeah things are good with Bryant i love him so much and im gunna miss him while im on spring break!!!

1 . Tell her she is beautiful
2 . Hold her hand at any moment even if it just for a second.

3 . Kiss her on the forehead.

4 . Leave her voice messages to wake up to.

5 . Always tell her you love her at any and all times.

6 . When she is upset hold her tight and tell her how much

she means to you.

7 . Recognize the small things . . . they usally mean the most.

8 . Call her sweety.

9 . Sing to her no matter how horrible your voice is.

10 . Pick her over all the other girls you hang out with.

11 . Write her notes. {she loves them}

12 . Introduce her to family and friends as your girlfriend.

13 . Play with her hair.

14 . Pick her up, tickle her and play-wrestle with her.

15 . Sit in the park and just talk to her.

16 . Tell her funny jokes, tell her stupid jokes, just tell her jokes.

17 . Throw pebbles at her window in the middle of the night just

because you missed her.

18 . Let her fall asleep in your arms.

19 . Carve your names into a Tree.

20 . If she's mad at you, kiss her.

21 . Give her piggyback rides.

22 . Bring her Flowers just because.

23 . Treat her the same around your friends as you do when

your alone.

24 . Look her in the eyes and smile.

25 . Let her take as many pictures of you as she wants.

26 . Slow dance with her, even if there isn't any music playing.

27 . Kiss her in the rain.

28 . If your in love with her . . . Tell her.

Tuesday, March 22, 2005

Tue, 22 Mar 2005 02:40:41 GMT

yeah so edit from earlyer....

yeah so lol yesterday was bryants 18th birthdday....i love him...lol...yeah so he and my mom came and picked me up fomr church...that made me happy..then we went back to my house and i gave him his present...i think he liked it...lol..then bj and matt came over and we all played pool and then we went back to bryants house for his birthday with his family....im considered family......lol..then bryant opened presents there and we (me and bryant) went downstairs by the fire place and just sat there and talked...he was like "this is my most favorite time in the world.."it made me...lol...then he started talking about college and how much hes gunna miss me and how hes gunna be doin alot of driveing jus to come and see me...i dont know what im gunna do when he leaves...when jus talking about it and thinking about it makes me cry im gunna be a reck when hes gone....but yeah....

just thoughts...

Monday, March 21, 2005

Mon, 21 Mar 2005 20:13:11 GMT

I LOVE BRYANT WITH ALL MY HEART AND YUP

Thursday, March 03, 2005

Thu, 03 Mar 2005 19:46:57 GMT

yeah so my computers fixed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!WOOT WOOT

yeha so nothing really exciting happend in the 3MONTHS that my computer was broken....except fo the fact that i turned 16 and i dont have my licens yet but we are working on it at the very moment..(moneyissues) ...yupANNDD M E and B r Y @ n T have been together for 9 MONTHS..WoOt WoOt!AWWWW...lol E X C I T E M E N T goes through my body..yup and S P R I N G B R E A K is in like 20days total and 15days of school!!!~!~W O O T~ W O O T~!~

buti g2g b/c B R Y @ N T is on his way over so PEACE-IN

Sunday, January 09, 2005

Sun, 09 Jan 2005 04:29:55 GMT

hello everyone

this is kelsey, updating for my love, ashley, who is currently in a pickle with her computer broken. again. because there is never a time when it isnt broken haha.. so yea, pretty much.

i love you ashley, i had so much fun hanging out w/you and snowmobiling and making new cel phone greetings and yeaaa... more good times for sure.. well im out tho i love you sooo much! xoxo

Friday, December 17, 2004

Fri, 17 Dec 2004 03:18:35 GMT

The tall, skinny, handsome doctor walked properly into the room and he diagnosed him with melanoma. He described it as the most serious skin cancer, a malignant tumor that produces different color pigment in your skin, and is mainly found in moles. He gave my father a certain amount of time to live. My mother was possibly pregnant with me but not yet sure. My parents were sitting there, in that little box shaped room, thinking of how this could have happened. A couple so much in love, they didn’t know what to do with themselves. In their heads ran the questions, “Why us?” “Why now?” They were just married, how could God let something like this happen to such a great person? My family doesn’t deserve this. The cancer affected my dad in the worst way, where you become swollen in many places; he was mainly swollen in the face. Seeing pictures of when he was sick is really sad and hard to believe that something like this could happen in our family.

Today I live with my Mother and my Grandmother. We have lived together for over 14 years. My grandma slaves over an oven during the day for teenagers who need to eat lunch at the school cafeteria. She also sits in a freezing cold chiropractor’s office doing secretarial work. My mother works at the OB/GYN Women and Children’s Clinic at Spectrum Health Hospital, which is where she has worked for most of her life.

I am almost 16 and a sophomore at Kenowa Hills High School. Through the years, living with my Mom and Grandma has not been so easy. When you have three women, in one house hold forever, it can be kind of crazy. For example, there is rarely any time where we are on time for anything. My mother and my grandmother are like the cleaning fairies of the household and get mad at me when ever I leave something out. Sometimes I feel like I have to have the house so it looks as clean as heaven. Now if I had a Father I bet the house wouldn’t have to be so spick and span. I have realized it’s really different living without a dad. I’ll think about it and how he was the joker of the family and makes you laugh, he was the one in the family who would tickle you until you peed your pants.

My father, Ron (Chip), went to East Grand Rapids High School, and he went to Western Michigan State University, for college. My dad was twenty seven years old when he died. He started to get sick a little while after my mom and dad got married. They were only married for a year and a half before he died. They got married on October 25, 1986.

On their honeymoon, they decided to go on a bare foot cruise. The cruise boat was as small as a little row boat with a lower deck. They went on their cruise shortly after Christmas and the captain was the most extraordinary man you’d ever meet. The boat took them to a small island, and they were only supposed to be there for a couple days, well things changed! It turned out that the day they were supposed to come home the odd captain decided to get really drunk and they couldn’t come home. So there they were stuck on an island so small it could hold hardly ten people on it. The island had only one restaurant and a very run down hotel that you wouldn’t want to say in very long.

Today it is still sad to see the home videos of my Father. This Thanksgiving was the first time I had ever seen my Dad in motion. It was like watching someone who lives a wonderful life and is not scared of anything. Being able to hear him laugh and talk for the first time was so difficult but awesome at the same time. Hearing him happy was like nothing I have ever heard before. It was like a joy to my ears to hear someone so happy who even knew they were so sick. How could he not be scared if he knew he was going to die? Being able to look at him, not only in a picture but in motion was unexplainable. It was like seeing somebody that you knew forever but didn’t really know, like seeing someone you connected with a long time ago again. I wish I could see him come home just walk in the door, and then be able to feel his mustache brush against my cheek as he gives me a kiss and says, “How was your day baby girl?” To hear him talk directly to me would be the BEST present I could ever ask for. To be able to smell him and get his scent. To feel his warm and safe arms around me as he gives me a hug.

Today I still live with my loving Mother and Grandmother. As I grow older I realize that it gets harder for them to take care of me. I feel like for some reason they want me to stay young forever. That can’t happen though. I have got to be able to grow up and learn things in the real world. The way I think of it, though, is if my dad were still alive, he would let me go out with friends more. Well maybe not! I’m just trying to say that if he were to still be alive my mom wouldn’t be so cautious over me, not so strict. I could possibly have some brothers and sisters to fight with; I could grow up like a normal teenager. Some other things that I have come to realize are that he will never be able to walk me down the aisle when I get married. Also that he will never see my first born child, and he never got to see my go on my first date.

Even though I don’t have a Dad, I still have grown up to be a woman, and even though I don’t know my Father very well, I still love him very much and keep him very close to my heart. I also love my family very much, and I think them for always being there when in need! I love you guys, and I love you papa!

Tuesday, December 07, 2004

Tue, 07 Dec 2004 02:32:00 GMT

If you read this,
You must post a memory of me.
It can be anything you want,
It can be good or bad,
just so long as it happened.
Then post this to your journal.
See what people remember about you.....

lets try this again!!!!

Sunday, December 05, 2004

Sun, 05 Dec 2004 02:13:24 GMT

I’m the girl....the one that’s ALWAYS lost....the one with the fake smile...the girl who seems to be SO strong but daily continues to break. That girl who’s ALWAYS there & seems to have NO problems of her own...the one who holds back tears, until she’s off the phone...that girl is in love...with a guy who tries to understand

I don’t wanna be one of those couples that breaks up & then gets back together...that’s just a waste of time. If you think we can me it, then try harder because trust me if I didn’t think that are LOVE could overcome anything I wouldn’t have held on this long

What’s a soul mate? Well, it’s like a best friend but more, it’s the one person in the world who knows you better than anyone else. It’s someone who makes you a better person, but actually they don’t make you a better person, you do that yourself, because they inspire you. A soul mate is someone you carry with you forever. It’s the one person who knew you & accepted you & believed in you before anyone else did, or when no one else would & no matter what happens, you’ll ALWAYS love then. Nothing can ever change that

Right now, things couldn’t get any better between me & you. You said it yourself I'm the perfect girl for you, never gonna hurt you. Why? Because I'm the girl who’s ALWAYS getting hurt. It’s almost like it’s my job. So please if you’re going to take my heart like all the other boys, don’t be the one to break it, keep it with you & cherish it. Because I cherish every moment I'm with you. I want to thank you for making me feel like the center of the universe. Whenever we’re together NO matter if there’s 20 or 5 people there, your attention is ALWAYS towards me. I wanna thank you for making me feel loved

I don’t want the kind of boyfriend who doesn’t want me dancing on tables, i want the kind of boyfriend who is like “hell yea, get my girl another drink”

And, so while this is COMPLETELY against my beliefs. I’m gonna let myself fall in love with you. Even though guys ALWAYS seem to hurt me, I guess I have to take that chance I mean if I didn’t, I would probably just give up on love altogether & that has to be the saddest thing EVER. So here I go again, I’m just praying this time, my heart won’t end up breaking all over again. I’m all out of Band-Aids...

I like the whole (single, partying, having fun) kind of thing, but sometimes i miss the whole (kissing, hugging, holding hands, yeah he’s my guy) kind of thing

If sweatpants were sexy. If Monday mornings were more fun than Fridays. If junk food NEVER made you fat. If friends didn’t cause drama. If boys weren’t so confusing. If nothing was regrettable & if goodbyes only meant until tomorrow...wouldn’t life be perfect?

When I’m upset, I try to hide it behind a smile, but you ALWAYS know when something’s bothering me, you see right through me, you know me all to well

There’s something wrong with my life. Everything used to be fine but now it’s almost as if NOTHING is. People just really need to STOP talking shit about everyone & everything because sometimes it just fucking hurts. It seems like the WHOLE world has walked out & it’s now standing together against me & I’m all by myself. The ONLY person that I need to care about me is busy with some other girl to even be nice to me. It feels like EVERYTHING is falling apart & it’s ripping me up inside. I just want everything to go back to normal

Sometimes i Feel like i Cant make it -
Times get tough N I jus cant take it -
Sometimes i feel like i wont make it through -
Thats When i thank god for a best friend like u

a bEsT fRiEnD .u.N.D.e.R.s.T.a.n.D.s. wHen yOu
sAy --»fOrgEt iT«-- wAitS. f.O.r.e.v.E.r when
yOu sAy ..juSt a mInutE. .. -.s T a Y s.. wHen yOu say
|- LeAve me alOne -|` aNd - oPeNs tHe dOor b4
- - » yOu say cAn eVeN sAy cOmE iN « - -

I would give up my whole night ..
juss to spend ( 2 ) seconds wit ..
* yOu *

whenever u feeL LoneLy
jus Look at the s p a c e s
between y o u r fingers -n-
remember thats where m y
fingers wilL - a L w a y s - fit
[ . p . e . r . f . e . c . t . L . y . ]

{ + boys can bring joy into your life, but they can also bring you heartache, so you can't always rely on a boy to make your life easier, just more complicated. and that's what best friends are for: to help ease the pain that guys bring you into. + }

don't lose hope ---» when it gets dark, the stars come out.

everytime i [ hear ] your name,
------» see you in the distance,
think about you, talk about you,
even dream about you. . . .. . ..
my H E A R T beats faster / /
and i know that (( i'm in love )).

Everyone has that special someone in their life. Even if they don't know they have that special person... they do. Someone special is someone who always listens to you and what you have to say. Someone special always makes you feel good about yourself and who you are. Sometimes special people come into our lives and we will never forget them. They make you cry and you are so upset you aren't with them, but for some reason you still love them. There is something about that special someone that you can't explain to anyone and they don't understand. But I know and you know that true love never did run smooth and there is always a chance for everyone. Love is one of the hardest things and when you find that special someone, never ever give up cause someday your dream will come true.

LUV,

Asherz

Thursday, December 02, 2004

Thu, 02 Dec 2004 03:14:16 GMT

Monday, November 29, 2004

Mon, 29 Nov 2004 02:21:18 GMT

OKAY..so about my thanksgiving...yeah well it all started at my grandmas...first we get there to find out my cousin ran away...he came back later in the day but they thought he was leaving again...the everyone got mad at my grandparents because they are not going to be home for christmas...but o well...then after we ate the decided to whip out the videos of my daddy...Ok keep in mind this was the first time i EVER say my dad in motion.....but yeah...this was hard...it was the first time i ever heard my dad laugh talk...be dumb...lets just say this thanksgiving was really hard....i know that if my dad was still alive my mom and dad would still be together...they were very in love....when watching those movies it hurt me to watch her watch it....i could see the pain in her eyes...i could hear it in her voice....My aunt said the thin gi miss most is being able the hear that laugh of his.....People may not think this is a big deal...well it is to me hes my father....people dont know how much i would give to just for one day see him be able to hold him in my arms....i would just love to see him come home from work and walk in that door and give me a big hug....sometimes people dont know how good they have it to have both parents...I WOULD GIVE ANYTHING to see him....

=to my daddy...I love you with all my heart even though i have never met you im happy and excited for that day when i can finally meet you...even though your not hear in person you are hear in heart...you are always there...never forgottin....you are loved and very well missed...if i could of i would of took your place fot cancer...make it me instead of you....i love you and hope to see you when i come and visit....

love you baby girl=

*:*"Angel From Heaven"*:*

" Im my dreams at night i see you standing there,

like a angel from heaven you have come and touched my heart and soul,

you make me compleate with your gentle words of encouagement,

you give me the strength i need to succeed.

When i look into your eyes, i see a spirit that is complete,

With all the love, faith and hope

that one can possess inside.

even though out lives carry us appart,

i want you to know that this bond i have with you....goes further than the skies above.

Nomatter how far appart we are,

my love for you will always stay true,

for you truely are an angel to me.

I love you endlessly.

For it doesnt matter what your like ont he outside to me,

your inner being is what attracts me to you

whenever i see you i see a guy who needs someone to hold,

and share their deepest feelings with,

and if i was given the chance,

I know i would be able to make you life complete...

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